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right before my 24th birthday i started to feel a tightness in my hip/butt on (i think) my left side. having done sports before i obviously knew what a strained muscle felt like and chalked it up to that, spending little time or thought on it, and continuing my life like normal. during or around my birthday things got worse. i had ignored the warning signs and could no longer have a normal day because of the pain. one morning while waking up to send kevin off to work my hip,

youtube/podcasts: ⭐︎ joy tactics , podcast with jack bensinger, nate varrone, and eric rahill ⭐︎ atomic twins , me and kevin have been religiously watching every new video of theirs for over a year now. they're ex mormon twins who do commentary on reality tv shows and follow along with them. editing is good, better than sitting through HOURS of a shitty tv shows, they have all the highlights & make funny edits. ⭐︎ jack bensinger , another one of kevin's look alikes that i wa

everywhere but here at night when i am drunk or tired he sits on my lap later i slip into bed & he howls in the valley from the belly of a coyote while i listen i practice learning to be happy that i know him at all the more he howls the clearer it is he is everywhere but here sketch of dave that i use on the website

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This is Dennis. This is an edited photo.