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right before my 24th birthday i started to feel a tightness in my hip/butt on (i think) my left side. having done sports before i obviously knew what a strained muscle felt like and chalked it up to that, spending little time or thought on it, and continuing my life like normal. during or around my birthday things got worse. i had ignored the warning signs and could no longer have a normal day because of the pain. one morning while waking up to send kevin off to work my hip,

youtube/podcasts: ⭐︎ joy tactics , podcast with jack bensinger, nate varrone, and eric rahill ⭐︎ atomic twins , me and kevin have been religiously watching every new video of theirs for over a year now. they're ex mormon twins who do commentary on reality tv shows and follow along with them. editing is good, better than sitting through HOURS of a shitty tv shows, they have all the highlights & make funny edits. ⭐︎ jack bensinger , another one of kevin's look alikes that i wa

this is my new favorite cheesecake recipe!! i will update with a picture soon, i didn't even have time to take a picture before it got devoured last time i made it, and i am currently in the overnight waiting process of it rn and do not have a finished product picture. edit: picture is up! for this second round of using this recipe i extended the crust up the sides of the pan more, which i actually prefer! this morning i sent kevin to work with a slice and had one myself and

love is blind is always trash, the concept is actually stupid and the stakes are much too high. that being said, i keep coming back. whenever you feel down or like you've been making bad decisions watching a shitty reality show is helpful in showing perspective that it could always be worse; ie you could have signed up for a show where you would marry someone you have known for less than a month in total. this particular season though.... holy fuck. after scouring reddit's lo

everywhere but here at night when i am drunk or tired he sits on my lap later i slip into bed & he howls in the valley from the belly of a coyote while i listen i practice learning to be happy that i know him at all the more he howls the clearer it is he is everywhere but here sketch of dave that i use on the website

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OVER CONSUMPTION: living well and happily looks differently for everyone. importance lies in little things. a constant push and pull, an excuse here and there, a deviation from the norm using an exception. why does buying things feel good, why are there so many things that seem made for me but yet are not mine. being the friend who always has the new fun thing doesn't actually feel as fulfilling as it seems it would. it just brings up the question of why other people can see

this past week i was on a break from work, the resturant closes down right before the summer season begins. i orginally thought this...

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